Honoring Suicide Prevention Awareness Month

BRIGHTER DAYS 

Dark Days surrender now.
I’ll send you off, though I know not how.
‘Tis light that is seen at tunnel’s end,
My heart need now only mend.

Treated poorly, yes it’s fact,
More than once was I attacked.
But I am strong, will not be downed
Pour in more water I will not drown.

Even the sun turns dark at night,
Sometimes at length it’s beyond our sight.
But it exists and will send its ray
And I again will come out to play.

I’ve screamed and yelled and felt the pain
It carries on and causes strain.
The load will get lighter by the hour
I’ll lose the dark, won’t give it power.

For now, its hold too strong, too tight
It grips my heart throughout the night
But it does not know how short it’s stay
I’m getting stronger every day.

GOD’s Light

The yellow my future
The yellow God’s light
Somewhere deep down 
It’s still burning bright

I’ve shown it around
They say it’s seen in my eyes
But my own healing is muted
Deaf to my cries

He asked if I hurt
Do I bleed, shed tears
I told Him I’ve held 
It for too many years.

Cry again once more
My child dear
No more to run
You must let them come near

For I am within
Each one that you see
When they hold you tight
Know that it’s me.

SOLITUDE

Amber harvest moon above
Stars are twinkling bright
I sit surrounded in this darkness
Finding again the world’s true light

Sometimes the darkness is within
My soul twisted with despair
Sometimes calms comes to free me
As this moment in nights clear air

A moment to myself alone
A quiet solitude I’ve found
Allows me thoughts, ideas, cares
Releases me, I am unbound

Easy now it is to find the joy
Sometimes lost in life’s confusion
I remember now my life’s true passion
No longer happiness an illusion.

DAMN

She tells me to allow the feelings
Let the pain come as it will
Tells me I will move beyond this 
She doesn’t know this pain can kill

This pain - she cannot know
It matters not from where she came
I try to listen, try to learn
But she has never felt the same.  

Yet, to see her, again I come
She knows the way to reach the light
Again, to her, I come to learn
Again I hope to make things right

More important she is there
It matters not if she has felt this pain
She has shown me step by step
And will help me to find my name